Ice exchanged for our heat just moments ago
Kicking, crumbling, crystal lattices finely spun
During those hours that our bodies perling with sweat,
Entwined, in no tomorrow and no yesterday
Just parted, in convulsions, and a word, upset,
A thought, paralyzing the love that’s too precious
To be ever lost, made you walk downstairs and now
I reach for that cold golden metal handle freezing,
Feeling that built up ice losing its harshness on the weight
Of my step and the heat that pursues you,
Standing, standing just for a moment too long.
The sound of the French little cafe, filled with chatter
People so close and densely packed, I don’t know if
I will find you in the cacophony of too much, too quickly.
But then, there, one look, across the room, falling into
Your piercing eyes which carry the unspoken universe
Of endless hours lived in parallel lives so far apart yet
Merged by some invisible force on the anvil of fate
Into one, I see you, longingly, I feel your look, desperately
And in the flash of a second though we were apart in mind
Just a moment ago, I am drawn to your trance and feel
Your pull and relief that I came,
Came, just in time, just in time.
And all the world just ceases to exist and falls away
Before your gravitas and dignitas - your aura and composure
Shining bright and burning themselves into the very last part of my heart.
And all the world that’s in your mind and soul I feel that I know you
And knew across time and space when we were just little kids and continents apart.
I cannot lose you, no, I just cannot bear the thought, to lose you again.
Hearing the words of my own mind flowing in exuberant joy
Seeing your longing lips and expressions of wonder shared flow along,
I miss your every touch, every word, every silence and even your disdain.
Don’t leave me in the dark, don’t leave me behind.
The truth of the matter is, I never let you go. I can never let you go.
Lennart